DISATER FIRST DAY

Listening: The Pussycat Dolls - Stick With You
Feeeling: Mixed Emotions
Time: 10:57PM

hello people :(
geez today was very out of nowhere.
it kills me
it started greeeeeeeeeeeeeeat
screaming and saying hi and welcoming back
liek every first day backs are .
LOL
then emily shouted me up and go
when i finished it.
i felt different
like it was a big different
like mentally buh PHYSICALLY.
not like one of those the spirit within me shit.
no i felt bigger, fatter
more emotional
more stuff, etc.
cnt tell you guys
coz it will freak you guys out
and youll start to judge me
and not talk to me and so on .
i talked to 2 of my friends
one says to ask my mom
one says .. to get a test and test it .
you kjnow, like thats what a test is.
anyways ..
i got mixed emotions
coz this is a question that i cnt even ask you guys
if i cnt even answer it myself
its a yes and no question and it has to be either of them
and its life changing after that first question is a yes or a no .
i got no one to really understand whats happening
it would be easier if i was older
as it wouldnt be disappointing as much as now.
anyways .
im not gunna say anything more about this subject
i neeeeeeeeeda get things sorted out
and i need to know the solution and the explanation of this problem
and its a big porblem coz it affects many peoples lifes, my schoo life, my health, my realtionships with my friends and people at school
coz they will judge me .
i hope the question turns to a no
as i can go on with my life
and actually resolve and think about how i cnnot do this again
and if i tell my mom and dad, they will kill me
if i was older then they would be dissappointed buh not as much
becoz i would be an adult .
buh sicne im 14 and 9 months starting work .
they will control me and since im under their roof
i have to take their shit
anyways .
im done tlaking baout this
ill talk to you and inform you
if anything happens.

you know whatsup,
love you, emem