February 14th 2008- August 3rd 2009

Listening: cascada - everytime we touch [ in my mind]
Feeling: heat broken
time: 1143AM

dear pat,
i have loved you frm the start
like seriously .
our time has ended, but it doesnt mean that our love is over .
i am in ist missng you
i have cried about 10 times today
but it still hurts .
from the end of year 8;
we had the greatest crush on eachother
like seriously
it was so cute
valentines when i asked you in the morning
and when you asked me in the night ,
it was how i call, really lol .
but stilll
last night when it ended was like sobbing
you can hear it in my voice
all im saying is, the reason why i did what we did is becaus ei thought about you, me, our schooling, our time and our grades .
you can do so much better than me,
you can do better at schoool
i love you so muchhhh patttttty
like i did what i did for the best, it doesnt mean that
its wasnt gunna be the best mood
weve been through thick and thin
its harddddd to not think about you
as im thinking about you now
lol .
hmmm, babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
dont worry,
youll be fine
time will heal
and things will get better
you have friends that can cheer you
trust me
pat rememebr what we agreeeed on
18 remember?
or sooner?
it depends
i bet we wont alk that much no more
and omgsh
i didnt think it was gong to happen
omgsh i think im tearing up .
shit, i am
anyways
i need be strong
love something let it go, if it comes back that is how you know
and my friend sang that to mee
lol
marquez houston much ?
LOL
patty just becoz we broke it
doesnt mean i dont love you babe :)
see how we wer last ngiht on the fone
trying to say good bye
i got soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tearyyy
and then after we said i love you , i got more saaaaaaaaaaaad
thinking that this was a mistake,
its not coz this is benefiting us, in a way
becoz im trying to make you focus more on school .
and shit .
pat i dont want to keep you tied down for the rest of your life
thats just slack
pat theres gunna be other girls that you think are more awesome than i will ever be.
sooooooo. pattttt
im doing this for you,
coz i know im a distraction than i insppiration .
coz i can sense it :(
pat if we wer still going out now, all busy and shit
iamgine nxt year
thats even worse
we jst need to take time and relaxxxxx .
well im trying :)
paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat
no moatter what
i love you i still love you
i will always love youuuu
no matter whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!
forever and ever and ever .
im telling youuu now .
babyyyy .
last thing .
for now .
dotn worry about me,
think about you and only you for now.
keep me out of your life for now
when your ready you can talk to me and shit :)
well go out ofcourse :D:D:D
LOL .
pat ilov eyou and i miss you haaaaaaaaaaaarrrd
aahha dw, im still going to your aunties birthday on the 22nd aug :)
coz i got no work.
i love youuuu babyyyy .
i miss you
well be okay .
ttyl :)